Imagine standing in your kitchen and hearing, “You are to write a book. It is called ‘Dream the Answer’. There was no one in the room with me. The year was 2001. This was clearly a clairaudient experience (inner hearing) and my reaction was one of excitement and surprise. My first thought was – What a great title!
This is a bunch of stories mixed in with a “How To” for working with your dreams for finding answers.
Since I do bounce around a bit in this little book of mine, I wanted to say a couple of things first that will help you understand the stories a bit better. First off, when I say that my daughter and I ‘did this or that’ and no one else seems to be around, that is because it was just the two of us for 12 years. Except for when we lived with my parents initially until she was eight months old and again with my younger brother for a year or two.
My intention with sharing my stories and what I have learned is to pass this on for others to learn from. It is also a diary of sorts for my children to read and understand their mother better. (I hope) I have learned from so many people and my favourite books are memoirs, biographies and autobiographies. I love to learn from other peoples stories so it makes sense to share mine too. Plus as an added bonus, readers can learn to work with their dreams for themselves, just like I did.
Okay, so even though I had intuitive abilities as a child, this only intensified after my grandmother on my father’s side passed away. I did not see that coming. Other people knew about my grandmother’s failing health as I was to find out later. They knew she had heart problems and wouldn’t be with us much longer, unbeknownst to my 12-year-old self. Filled with deep emotion and dealing with the grieving process, I prayed so hard. The prayer was that the remaining three grandparents would not leave this earth without me knowing about it ahead of time. Be careful what you wish for…
Below is the most life changing event I have had yet ~ A GRAND PREMONITION
The most perplexing premonition and memorable event involved dreaming of my maternal grandfather. My dream took place in the beginning of March 1998 and I recognize this now as astral travelling in my dream state. Suddenly, I found myself suspended in space and my grandpa appeared in front of me.
Surprised to see him, I asked him what he was doing. He responded by saying that he had something important to tell me and that I was not to be too sad about it. Grandpa continued by saying, “Before we are born, we choose a time we are to be born and a time we are to die. I was originally going to die at the end of March but now your uncle is coming down to see me and I need to stay alive for him for a couple of days. So now I will die on your cousin’s birthday.” (He was referring to the daughter of the uncle coming to visit)
I awoke from this dream feeling sick to my stomach. I hoped that it had been just a nightmare. It was something I couldn’t keep to myself so I phoned my mother’s oldest brother to tell him as he is a psychic also. He agreed with me that it was probably just a nightmare.
As March drew to an end that year, my uncle announced he was coming to Manitoba soon to see his father. It would be a 10 to 12 hour drive. Immediately I felt anxious as the date he said he was arriving on coincided with my astral travel experience.
Sure enough, my uncle arrived for a visit on April. 8th, 1998. Grandpa had already taken a turn for the worst and could no longer communicate with anyone. He could only move his foot to the Celtic music we played in his nursing home room. I informed my older brother Chad about my dream as he planned to go see grandpa on the 11th. If my dream was true and it sure was shaping up that way, grandpa wouldn’t be in his body on the 11th, only in spirit. Suppose it was my passion about the whole thing that persuaded him and we went together to say goodbye.
At 10:05 pm, two days after my uncle’s arrival, on April. 10th, I whispered to my Grandpa to come and see me in my dreams and that it was okay for him to go. As I kissed him goodbye, he tried to answer me with a muffled sound and nodded his head. I found out later that he passed away ten minutes after Chad and I left the room.
Looking back on the similarities of what the dreams felt like and what I felt like when I woke up finally led me to knowing how to recognize a premonition. It was after this awakening that I could then understand and teach others what to look for.
If what grandpa said was true of us ‘choosing’ then I take that to mean I chose my parents and siblings as well. Other people have spoken of this. For example: Dr. Wayne Dyer spoke of us choosing our parents before we are born. This past weekend, I had the pleasure of meeting Gail Thackray and she said the same thing.
This is my experience and I have to interpret it the best I can. It applies to this situation as I cannot speak for others. It may not explain murders or accidents (unless that is a prior agreement between the two souls). I am of the opinion that people can be accidentally taken out or leave before their time. But again, I really do not know.
My Grandpa did come see me in my dreams and this was one thing he told me – Write it down!
In 2005, my dream had me visiting the farm where my maternal grandparents lived. I was standing where my grandfather sat at the table which was in front of the stove. Knowing with all my heart that he was sitting there, I demanded he appear to me so I could see him.
Frustrating feelings erupted inside of me because I knew without a doubt that he was there. I could feel his presence. The more I insisted he appear and he didn’t, the more upset I became and the more he did not make himself observable to me.
Giving up, I turned to leave. It was in that moment of releasing the need to see him, that my grandpa became visible. He looked at me with his usual sparkling eyes and conniving grin. There he was. Finally!!! I was seeing my grandpa again and a sense of relief came over me and at the same time an overriding feeling of joy.
He told me that if I am pushing for something, it does not allow for the energy to flow. If I keep pushing and demanding to see or know something, it creates a blockage. The moment I stepped back after stating what I wanted clearly, then he came to me.
My grandpa continued to advise me to write down what it is I want in my life. This makes it a concise intention to the universe. If I am taking the time to write it down, it is acting like a prayer. As I woke up I could still hear him repeatedly say, “Write it down!”
Titles just come to me and I have the Google Keep app that keeps track of these spiritual downloads. The one I grabbed from the list – Unpack Your Feelings – fits what I want to say today. Typically this is how I speak to myself in a Dream Diary entry so I created a new category for this type of blog post.
Is it safe for me to express what an emotional effect the newest version of A STAR IS BORN had on me? The 1976 version is listed as one of my favourite movies alongside The Wizard of Oz. So… going into the Landmark theatre, landing in the comfy reclining seats and preparing myself for what I knew was coming had me on high emotional alert. I knew what I was in for.
Beautiful music, romance, addiction struggle, pain, loss. In other words, intense emotion. Was I going to allow myself to feel the emotions? That was the question posed to me from my younger brother Ryan.
Emotion. You don’t have a choice. The music sucks you in. The actors suck you in. You can’t help getting caught up in it.
I was struggling for the words to express how I was feeling after the movie and this was the text I sent to Ryan. (featured image & screenshot below) I have since described the feeling as “Tears in my ears”.
This movie allowed me to unpack my feelings. To bring back fond childhood memories when I saw the movie at the age of 8. That experience had me wanting to be like Barbra Streisand. To sing. To love deeply. To be a star at what I choose to do.
It was also the first time I was on the phone long distance with my Aunty Brenda who owned the record. She made me an 8 track tape and mailed it to me.
So not only did I get to talk on the phone long distance, I received a treasured package in the mail that I continued to listen to up to the age of 19 going on 20. I had an 8 track cassette player in the 1973 Gremlin I was driving at that age. My older brother Chad gave me that car. Most people had cassette players in their vehicles at that time. (1987/1988)
Barbra Streisand’s song “With One More Look At You/Watch Closely Now” begins with these lyrics:
With one more look at you
I could learn to tame the clouds
And let the sun shine through
I have been singing this song to my children for years. My 8 year old son joins in now when I sing it and he has never heard Barbra sign it yet. I sent a link to the YouTube video to my daughter after she saw the 2018 – A Star is Born.
Since the day of seeing the movie on Saturday Oct 13th, 2018), I find myself watching the YouTube videos of the songs. I wake up in the night with the song “Shallow” playing in my mind.
The best part of this video is at the 1:46 mark to 1:49 where Lady Gaga’s character Ally takes the song up a few thousand notches and seeing Bradley Cooper’s character – Jackson’s reaction to it. Fills my heart up fast!
Are you going to allow this movie to unpack your feelings for you also? It is very therapeutic. If you have been stressed out about anything, it reaches inside you and releases it. Love it! Love it! Love it!
Thank you Bradley Cooper for making this movie. What an impact on the world you have made through your artistic expressions. And choosing Lady Gaga for the lead was a brilliant move. What a shining light!
My experience on how I astral travelled during a waking meditation.
[From: April 27, 2017] – I decided to do a meditation sitting up on the couch. My intention was to meditate myself into an astral travel experience. I didn’t want to listen to an mp3 and fall asleep. Before starting the process, I asked Divine Guidance for answers about better health and getting my projects completed and out there. Notice in the dream diary entry that follows – when I get connected to my higher self and start to astral travel, I changed gears about what I wanted to know quickly. LOL
This is what I wrote in my dream diary about the experience:
Somehow, calling in assistance, I found myself saying, “Please come through me and help me find the answers I am looking for.” (The answers I wanted were about – Guidance for health & for getting my projects completed and out there)
Suddenly I found myself hearing this woman’s voice from behind my head and she whooshed into me it seemed. This sound came out of me and I thought I was speaking out loud in a foreign language. It was weird. She picked a part of my essence up (I remained in a sitting position) and she told me I needed to be using the colours red and orange to help myself. I think it was more orange than red.
I had a distinct awareness that I could travel and I hoped no one called or texted because that would pull me back fully into my body. I asked to go to Atlantis. I did feel sick to my stomach in parts. Felt like we flew straight east and over the ocean. I could see red buildings or red roofs on the buildings as we left Canada. Finally landed and I saw a brick building, then a school yard with a clay structure. When I first landed, the wind seemed to have a blue colour. I stood up when we landed to look around. I had flown over the ocean in a sitting position.
Then it seemed to me as I looked around that it was way too much like what a “Spanish” area would look like now. I saw a flat roofed building with the word “Ford” on it. Not splashy and big like it is in North America. Then I saw the woman and she was fixated on something. Older with shorter blonde hair. Wondered if she was me in another existence or a higher part of me. I wondered if I had been an eccentric lady in Atlantis. I asked her why she hadn’t taken me to the real Atlantis from a long time ago. (Felt like 3000 years ago) and she said, “Because if you went there you wouldn’t want to come back.”
Then I found myself sitting in what looked to be a waiting room but 70’s style. There was a square window opening into another space across the room from me. I looked over at it and couldn’t believe my eyes. There were three people there who had passed away. One was Sonny Bono who said hi to me. Then my awareness turned back into a dream. I had finally fallen asleep and yes I was still sitting up on the couch.
I asked the Divine to take me to Atlantis and I did not doubt my ability to do so
Why did I shift to wanting to know about Atlantis instead of better health and completing projects? However, this experience did help me finish re-mastering my fiction book – Bewitched by Atlantis: The Butterfly Mask
The orange and red colours are associated with the first two chakras. Perhaps it takes a combination of firing up these two chakras to astral travel.
This experience shows me that parts of Atlantis have risen again (The present day Canary Islands)
Next time I attempt this, I will be more specific and promise to return to my body. (If I am allowed to travel back in time to the original Atlantis)
And…next time I attempt this process, I will record myself so that if anything comes out of my mouth like last time, maybe I will be able to make sense of it.
Now the question remains…why have I not attempted to do this again? Because it rattled me. I asked for my higher self/spirit guides to come through me. And it happened. I have been doing safe meditations and self-hypnosis since then. Now it is time to do this again. There’s a whole world out there to explore.